tired legs hangin free

It was my first instinct to complain about the infection I have brewing in my nose.
It hurts - yes - it does.
I could also bitch about the exhaustion I am suffering, it is bad, really bad.
But, instaed of going right to the negative (although I did mention it),
I will instead tell you that I made a delicious pot of beef stew last night and a pumpkin cake with amazing cream cheese frosting for dessert. I mention this because it is my dinner for the fam tonight.
All I want is to get home, pour a glass of red, ladle out a bowl of stew, put on my jammies and swab the inside of my nostril with bactroban and call this day done.
I will say, I am unbelievably calm.
I am unbelievably in control.
I am focused beyond belief.
Although something awful is happening in my life - it is not controlling my life.
I like it, like it a lot.
Clearly the cold I have, and the infection in the schnoz is no-brainer proof that I am run down and extremely susceptible to illness right now -
that is why I have not smoked at all, took a mess of vitamins today, drank a shit ton of water and orange juice and...yes ate my fruits and veggies.
I need to take care of me to stay strong and positive and on top of my game.
And I think that is literally all I have the energy to type - I am nodding off in the chair.
I would go smoke a cigarette, but that would be bad and gross and smelly.
Instead I will sit with my eyes closed, take a few deep breaths and picture myself healthy on a brisk walk in the sunshine.
And a steaming bowl of Nana stew.