After minutes and hours....

Oh my GOD blog readers....
If you only knew what a hassle it has been to get to you. Sigh/grunt.
I received an email in my college email inbox the other day explaining that my Google account through school could no longer be used to access my Blogger account and therefore I would have to "transfer" my account to a new gmail account. Okay when they said "transfer" what they really meant is 'we are lying' this will be our attempt to prompt you to kill yourself by repeatedly making you fill out the same form and simultaneously teasing you by letting you look at your very own blog, BUT, yeah NO, not be able to sign into it because the 7,000 assorted screens you have filled out countless numbers of times are all smoke and mirrors and we are laughing at you from inside the monitor which we know you want to smash with your bare and shaking hands....
Wow. Sorry for that rant,
but really,
that was how it went, minus the little people in the computer monitor - I am well aware they are full sized humans at the "command" center who are laughing at me.
Ugh technology is just too advanced for me. I can't transfer shit between accounts, I can barely make a transfer at the bank.
Sigh - There are some things I am just not good at.
Good news is this - like a brave little toaster, I logged in and did the deed - followed through from beginning to end and here I am!!!!
Yay, boy am I exhausted.
In the days since I have been away, so much has happened that I know not where to begin....
I saw Dave and Tim - EPIC EPIC EPIC show, so EPIC that EPIC in capitals, still doesn't cover it....
Crazy how much changes and how much stays exactly the same. I first saw the boys at Colby college in Maine, way way back in the day. So much has changed and so much remains the same....
Immediately following the show I came home and collapsed in my bed sick as hell from a sore throat/chest cold that literally had me down until yesterday - I could not get out of bed for three days straight.
Literally - I got up to pee, look at my sweaty sick self in the mirror, groan at my reflection and then crawl back into bed and return to that ill sleep that borders on hallucinations instead of dreams. Dayquil and Nyquil became my best friends....Round the clock while praying "please don't let it be strep"
I missed my first day of classes - can you believe it??? SO DEB.
And....I was out of my head enough so that when the Earthquake happened, I wasn't really sure what the hell was happening...I woke to the rumbling and thought the hot water heater was about to explode underneath me, got my phone and my dog and headed out the door, ready to crawl away (or ride Willa) away from the impending explosion. Funny thing....The driveway rumbled too....Oh wait - Earthquake?
I called Steph and yup, she felt it too, not just a dangerous overdose of NYQUIL in my blood stream, tremors were widespread - not just in my head (phew).....
Oh and Amy Winehouse had no drugs in her system BTW...
It has been a crazy week thus far, I am unsure where to go from here....
I am sitting in the library at school - my first class of the day (math) at 8am was canceled GRRRRR - sick girl could have slept in ....ugh, so instead I fight my 'transfer' accounts and meet with my academic adviser and begin to ponder my future beyond this school year...
Do I cram in a foreign language and go to UVA? Do I do the Mary Baldwin program and become a teacher? What to do - what to do??? I have about two months to decide and then I need to apply....My 3.926 GPA has me in golden shape for whatever I choose - question is, what do I want to be when I grow up????
And, does college play into that or should I just do everything I do from this point forward for me? What makes me happiest and not what will make sense?
Hmmmmmmm, lots to think on.
At least in the Spring if I pass all my classes and maintain good grades, I will have earned my associates degree and go forward with the luxury of choices.
I like choices a lot.
I like choices, I just have to keep in mind that I am also a master procrastinator at not necessarily making in due time - I put shit off and off and off.
We all know I want to just write - but, do I want to write during the summer poolside because the rest of the year I am employed as a teacher??? How I would love to impress my love of literature on the youth and also be a drama teacher on the side ahhhh......Or do I go forward as an English major and got my PHD and teach college English???
Sorry - Back to questions I go....
Okay well I have had enough of this chair - my ass hurts and my legs are numb.
Oh, did I mention that I quit the cancer sticks? 5 days. I feel fine, no anxiety yet.
Now to just stay off them when summer rolls around again next year - I love cigarettes in the summer...
Is that normal?
I want to run again, I miss the running Deb a lot - she was such a bad ass and had the nicest legs....
Me and my numb ass must move.
Now that I have cracked my own blogger code I will write more - I will be back.
Crazy to have not been able to get to my own blog. FRUSTRATING.
I hope you are all well - I have missed you.