take two and call me in the morning.

What's this? Two blogs in one day, what what???
I am back in the library can you believe it? On Tuesdays I live at school - here at the crack o' and until the doors get locked for the night.
I love it - don't get me wrong.
I love everything about it, ESPECIALLY that this semester in order to graduate and transfer out I MUST take a Phys ed. class...
At first I was pissed - really? Pay the college to force me to work out, grrrr.
But now I am like Yessssss, why can't I do this every semester?
I just spent two hours in the new gym at the college and feel like the old me.
Not old as in ancient, over forty, elderly BUT rather the previous bad ass version that threw around weight bars like they were feathers and dripped sweat after running miles or spinning or pumping...
I felt like the old me who cared that I could out run an attacker. And, that if by chance that said attacker was a runner too and he caught me, well he was in for the fight of his life and a possible skull fracture cause my thighs were that strong - I could kill you with my legs I swear, crack skulls like nuts.
I showed up in my gear with my ipod and BEGGED the instructor to allow me to switch from the morning class that I am enrolled in to the evening class - it gives me the freedom to take another English class cause I am a sick person who cannot get enough literature or the good doctor.
I pleaded with her, gave her my sob story, mother of four - limited time - tight schedule - yada yada...
You know what she said? "you have four kids?"
When I told her that one of my children was a student here and in an evening class on Tuesdays night and that is why I need to switch so desperately (car pooling) she didn't believe me - thought I was lying, fabricating, making up kids that are not real...
SMILE SMILE SMILE.
Told her I was 41 (almost) and she didn't believe me again - SMILE BIG SMILE.
Told me I look awesome.
Yeah yeah whatevs, but can I still crush heads with my legs is the question?
Can I still run like the wind?
Probably not, BUT give me a month or two and I'll be back -
IT FELT SOOOOO GOOD.
Thing is, I am an athlete - a born athlete.
I love to be physical - love to sweat - love to push through walls of pain.
LOVE IT.
What the hell was I ever thinking letting this part of my life go?
Oh wait, I know - get your college degree Deb, write a book or three....
Right, only so many hours in the day...
Ugh.
But sahweeet that I HAVE to take this class - shucks...Sorry kids (throat clear) Mom has to go to school.
School is a gym !!!!! Yippee.
Okay enough of that -

I am amazed at how many people read my blog today...I know that most of the people who did will probably never ever read it again, I know that most of the hits were from Alli's remembrance facebook page, the astounding numbers certainly do not reflect my popularity. It is all about Alli and the grief.
I am cool with it not being about me, I write for you.... - I just kept watching the numbers rise and was like WOW this is amazing. Hundreds of you read - Hundreds....
I hope every one of those hundreds took my words literally - love revolution - life mission - cumulative effort....
I just know she would feel it - sigh.

Wouldn't it be nice if all those teenagers and young adults kept reading DEB DOES LIFE though? It really would - it would make me sooooo happy to have young blog followers.
Kiddos keep reading me...
Well, the sweat circles under my boobs are now making me cold because my body temp has regulated and being wet in the air conditioning is no longer a good thing - I am freezing, so I guess I shall go do math homework where it is warmer.
Have to remember toiletries for Thursday and then I can shower....
Sorry kids Mom has to go to school (AND SHOWER :) - this is too good to be true.

Bless you all - have a beautiful night.